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Date Posted: December 17th, 2018, 5:13 pm
i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i cant sing i cant draw i cant be a good person i cant run i cant dance i cant pay aTTENTION FOR JUST ONE FUCKING MINtsuE, i cant fucking play sports, i cant even fucking be skinny
normal
FUCKING NORMAL
i tried starving myself  but that didn't work it never works nothing works i wish i was skinny i wish i was worth something i wish i was nice i wish i was pretty
i wish kate liked me but she doesnt

i keep clinging onto the tiniest of details, keep hoping for ANYTHING, just anything..
there's nothing

she wouldn't care if i died tommorow
maybe there's some people that would care if i did
but they shouldn't they should never CARE

im a fat disgusting pig
im an asshole
im a talentless freak
im a worthless piece of shit

im nobody, absolutely fuckin nobody

i want to rip out my stomach but of course i cant reach it through all my fucking fat
im gonna fail auditions tommorow
who even knows if there will be a tommorow





i hope not

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Comments

You okay?
@thebradyiceeevee02: wasn’t ok a couple days ago but I’m really happy now so it’s chill
@HollyTheFluffyCat: Oh well that's good
I won't make you talk about it if you don't want to
? Oh god not another one
D:
Not another depressionist!
@pixlyJolt: dude,,,,,
please
Wat @Aura9301: well I’m sorry jeez. I think that happened at around 2:00 in the morning at my time so I’m sorry for the retardedness, but other than that, I wanna help. I gotta get back on track with this psychology stuff again...
@pixlyJolt: yo late reply like again but like,,,, wh
what do you mean another depressionist-

like literally this was one of the lowest points in the past couple months that comment didn't really help much hahah,,,,

i feel fine now just gonna say please,,, dont

also while you're at it don't use the word depressionist or retarded, thanks
@HollyTheFluffyCat: ^3^’ eh...it's...nothing?
@pixlyJolt: tf you mean "...nothing?"
@hade: I mean nothing